Wednesday, December 8, 2010


Its been a while since I updated here. Super busy with finals. But after finals, I still can't find anything to write about here. Probably my mind is usually distracted. Hmmm. Right now, I'm currently feeling distraught, sad, angry, disappointed, and there's a bit of flattered in there somewhere.

I enjoy the company I have now, say the people who actually asks me how I'm feeling, people who flatter me, and people who asks me how was my day. But those questions were never from the one person I want to hear it from. Its depressing that I still hope for it, you know?

I had this nagging thought at the back of my head for months now, and a million after-thoughts to that particular thought. But usually, people say that the first thought is always the best, but now, I'm reluctant.

Practical training is less than a month now, I'm freaking out, and he doesn't even give me motivation and encouragement, yes I can get it from simply anyone, but I want to know if he still cares. If he still think that this "thing" we have still exists.

Blahblahblah, all this thoughts in my mind, is about a guy, yeah. Pathetic. Lame. Loser-ish. Call it as you see it, I don't care, and I'm kind of suffering and going through a rough patch. I just need all the support and holidays I can get.

"F my Ass, and Call Me a Sissy"
-One of my breakdown moments quote

Hey you,
miss your presence in my life. Your friends can be there forever for you, but just know, I might not stick around that long if you keep on treating me like this.


you make me feel so good about myself. :)