Friday, February 27, 2009


Yes, this week has been CRAZY.

Let me state some things that I've done that will get you laughing, but before that, I would like to remind you that my mind wasn't sane at the time being, so the actions are pretty much stupid.

  • I drove a the beloved black waja through a MOTORCYLE LANE at the federal highway!Then, my sister, my friends and I pleaded the police officers no to fine us. Yela, 1st time aku buat benda jahat secara TAK SENGAJA. (aku tak tahu tu lane motor, tak nampak signboard, and my friend buat lawak bodoh, and said, if kau bernai masuk la lane tu, with no further thinking, aku masuk je, dah masuk baru tau, gelabah keluar dari lane tu)
  • Time tu jugak la ada 3 ketul police baru balik kerja kan. Haih. Dia suruh bagi each RM10, tapi kitaorang tak bagi. Then dia suruh lari kat tepi federal tu, tapi kitaorang tak buat jugak. Then dia bagi lepas camtu je. Ahahahaha! Merayu doh! Selamat 4 gadis comel *pukes* ada dalam kereta. Ahahaha!
  • If that wasn't stupid enough, later that evening I was in Mid Valley, we were about to go home to our Condo, I went into the passenger seat, point in case, I was the DRIVER! If that doesn't show my absent-minded self, I don't know what would. I was definitely out of my body.
  • We went swimming when it was raining. Baik mandi hujan je kan. Keluar pool dah batuk-batuk.
  • I excused myself from a meeting with SKVE Holdings Manager. (slumber aku je kan, cam company bapak aku plak)
  • I said alot of things that doesn't make sense. Speech-impediment. Ayat aku berterabur, dah tunggang terbalik. Ada ke nangis tersedak-sedak? Ahahahahaha.
  • Oh, and I've stuck between elevator doors dah 4 kali just this week. Now I'm afraid of it.
  • I asked for a breakup when I was driving. Yes, I didn't think of the consequences, me, in a car, raining outside, if the reply was devastating, I would have been in an accident, but, he chose not to reply, and I am fine now.
So, yeah, I've had alot on my mind lately. My friends would know. They've been laughing at me this whole week.

One more thing, I've found myself an overgrown baby! :D
Thanks to Hazizi & Aya.

Monday, February 23, 2009


Things have gone downhill since.

A dear friend passed away. Al-fatihah.
My love life is looking bleak, but I am trying to improve it.
My social life is already gone.

I seriously wish I was somewhere else right now.
I am depressed, yes, I am fucking depressed.

Friday, February 13, 2009

200 ain't worth it

Here's the confirmed lineup for Sunburst 2009.
There are other international artists to be confirmed: Coldplay, etc.

How depressing is this year's sunburst man.
I'd rather pay RM30 to watch local bands at the MCPA.
They play there frequently jugak.

But They Will Kill Us All, Otherside Orchestra, Butterfingers and Twilight Action Girl made me smile. :)

Serious feckin shit, RM200 is NOT worth it.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

It Stops Right Here

Where am I supposed to start?

Since months ago, I've been thinking how was it like to be invisible. Yes, I would love to be invisible. I mean, nothing is ever right with my doings. It seems like everything that I say, everything that I do, comes out wrong. Yeah, yeah. Same old, same old. I don't like how my studies are going, I don't like what my relationship is turning out to be. I don't like being the punching bag (again) in my family. And I certainly hate to be a doormat to people.

I hate being a pushover, but I don't know how to be anything else. I live in a world where I have no one to turn to, to talk to, or even be happy with. Lately I just feel as though I've done something so bad that I don't deserve living. Talk about being ungrateful.

I went out jogging today, for the sake of not turning myself into a potato, and for the sake of my relationship. No, he's not leaving me if I go fat. But, I'm sure sometimes he looks at other girls and then, looks at me. Well, I want to be the only girl in his life that he's proud of. After the jog, I felt happy, after so long, I've been pushing myself for a jog. When I was done, I feel as though I've reached something.

But my happiness came to an abrupt end. Mother got back from work and she started saying things as if I've done something terrible. And then she started ignoring me. I mean, what's the whole point of being in this house if I was to be ignored all the time?

Things got worse when the boyfriend text me with a hint of sarcasm. I hate the way things are going right now. I mean, the slightest bit of remark can get me off. No, my period is not here yet, and it won't visit til end of the month. And yeah, I'm just pissed off right about now.

Just when things were about to look up, it goes downhill.
I need my dose of Tender Love and Care, badly.

Friday, February 6, 2009


OK. It's been a while since I updated my blog. The last post was quite unfriendly, but I didn't regret what I said. I mean, it sucks being left alone, but sooner or later, I'll have to deal with it lah kan?

Here's my way of dealing; I'm waiting for Monday Translation class so I can finish my quiz and try to move to another class, so that I'll only have 1 day of classes, Tuesday. I know I'll miss out on the class-fun and all sorts of stuff. But I hate being left alone in the house of horror. (Har. Har.)

On a brighter note, I revamped my room, yet again. Yes, I have nothing better to do. I disassembled my study table, put up my night lights and fairy lights, organized the closets and changed my sheets. Eventhough at the back of my mind, there's this essay that I have to pass up on Tuesday. T_T

I have nothing more to write, oh yeah, I just realised I've been blogging with no photos. Which must be a bore for you to read, right? Oh, who am I kidding. I'm not even sure I have readers who follows my rants. Geez, stop being so bongkak lah Hannah.