Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Screw Me

So much for a drama-free life.

I have been slaving away since the start of exams, and nobody seems to notice that, they just give out more orders. And since the holidays started, and an uneventful occurrence happened, my life took a drastic turn. I am now the ultimate slave, so please, go ahead and wipe your snot on my hair.

The life and times of an ultimate slave is inclusive of being screamed at, being nagged at, being the punching bag. An ultimate slave does anything and everything to ease down anger or sadness. The job description does not end there, my fellow friends. An ultimate slave has to do the laundry, dishes, pets, cleaning, the stuff a maid does daily. Why the hell am I working as an ultimate slave, you ask me?

Because I don't have the privilege of saying 'NO'. Yes, that's right, I am allowed to only say yes, nod my head and agree. No matter how painful, stupid or fucked up the situation might be. I am only left to my thoughts from midnight till dawn. At dawn, my ego disappears and I resume to my superbly wonderful job.

Most of you would have draggy jobs, I assume. And most of you have the privilege of waking to a relaxing atmosphere. But I, have obligations, that I can't refuse. Sad, it is. But nothing takes the cake but being an ultimate slave without no-one to talk to. Thus, this ultimate slave, who happens to be tech-savvy, turns to her blog, instead.

This ultimate slave is going to be here for a long, long, loooooong time. So, if you need yourself a handy helper? Contact me here : 1800-I-AM-FUCKED-UP. If the line appears busy, you can mail the ultimate slave at screwover@lifesucks.com.

Thank you for reading my biography. It's been a pleasure to introduce my life to the people who thinks that they have a "Sucky" life.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

I'll Remember

Yes, I'll remember those exact words, and those specific actions.

Thank you.

I now have a life, drama-free.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009


I forgot the feeling of watching movies alone, and being able to keep the envy feelings to myself. Whenever I see couples, (which obviously, is on a daily basis) I get all jealous and turn away. Wai? Oh well, we're going to be 9 months this month. Time flies, kan? We were thinking of getting away, next February, but yesterday, when he told me that he got a job with a 5 month contract, I didn't even give myself an opportunity to feel surprised. I somehow knew it was coming. I am just too lazy to think about it.

Sigh, sigh, sigh. He's finishing his contract in April. I'm finishing my 4th semester in May. Probably he'll have time for me, then? I texted Conscience, and told her that B is always with work, and rarely spends a whole day with me, and said, "I won't ever be able to spend a day with him, no interruptions, will i?" and She replied, "Of course you will, kahwin nanti.hihi"

I shall wait for my wedding day then. I shall wait for the day, where everything will change. Or will it?

Maybe it will just change to having a busy Boyfriend, to having a busy Husband.

Sigh. I guess this is why I don't see us married? :'(







Thursday, November 5, 2009


"Hari yang bahagia bagiku apabila kali pertama bertemu denganmu,
Masa yang terindah bagiku adalah pabila hendak menjalinkan hubungan denganmu,
Apabila ku mendapatmu, tidak terkata perasaan dihatiku ini,
Betapa gembiranya aku menyayangi, dan menghormati,
Tidak sekali terlintas difikiranku bahawa kau sudi menerimaku,
Tetapi bagiku tidak kira setiap detik, masam hari, bulan, tahun dan abad sekalipun,
Perasaan dihatiku, sama ada kecewa, gembira, atau marah sekalipun,
Yang TERPENTING antara semua yang kukatakan tadi adalah;

Perasaanku apabila ku jatuh CINTA padamu.

Jangan sesekali terfikir bahawa cintaku akan kurang,
Kerana, ianya tidak akan terjadi sama sekali, wahai cintaku.

I'll always LOVE you, baby."

-My one and only.

Sunday, November 1, 2009


2 down, 2 to go.

When I wish for so many things that would bring me smiles,
I didn't even think to wish for my happiness.