Wednesday, October 28, 2009


I've been busy, and out of sync.

Will write soon.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


"i hope he's lucky too.."

Friday, October 16, 2009


“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me… everyday”

- Noah, The Notebook

I am so in love with you.

Thursday, October 15, 2009


Everything dimmed except for the spotlight upon your figure as you walked away. I spy with my rear view mirror, you were exhaling cigarette fumes, walking morosely until I saw pitch black. I thrust my gear, and drove. I went straight, and somehow I know things are different now. I have no light to guide me, I am lost. I'm driving nowhere. You are just a state of mind, you were not real, I tell myself. But, who was I to kid. I jammed the brakes and stopped the car. There and then, I broke down. This was fake. I was used. You were ....

Oh, how my sweet hopes are fucked.
Your love is just Lust.
Wise words are Bull.

Thanks, Stranger.

I think I've lost my faith somewhere along my pointless drive.

Sunday, October 11, 2009


You're not gone, you're just not here.

Eh, wait.

Lemme look at this situation again,






Oh, You are GONE.

It was just my imaginations, I thought my fairy tales was coming true.


Saturday, October 10, 2009


Why would it hurt, when its in the past?
What happened to 'let bygones be bygones'

Why would terrible news comes after you a few strikes in a row?
Why would fate do this to a person who is willing to sacrifice?


I ask, and I ask.

But the questions are left unanswered.

Why exactly, when you really think that you're starting to be happy, you find out something that is devastatingly sad.

I know it's selfish to be emotional right now.

I just don't want to feel a fuck now.

Fuck off, fucking no fucking use fucking problems.
Just Fuck Off.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Blush-Cheeked Girl

Every beat of my heart scream of your name,
Every trickle of sweat is caused by your superiority.
I blush my cheeks, to hide my shame.
I wish I was yours for an eternity.

I watched you walk past me everyday,
With no sign of interest, I see you walk away,
Your ignorance triggers my curiosity,
So then, I decided to stalk you anonymously.

One day I saw you light your red Marlboro,
With what I see, a frown upon your face.
Right then I knew my feelings for you would grow,
So I walked away with a quick pace.

You would go missing for weeks,
There were no longer of my burning cheeks.
But when you were back in action,
My mind would work overtime in math and fractions.

I finally plucked my courage to say Hello.
Your reply was short and mellow.
I was excited, but disappointed, nonetheless.
So I figured, I would stop being obsessed.

24 hours passed by,
You walked my way and greeted a cheery Hi.
I smiled and left,
Thinking If I should have...

You followed me to my class door,
Opened the door, like a gentleman, for ever more.
You continued to woo the Blush Cheeked Girl,
Until you gave her life a whirl.

Her love was finally spoken for,
It is you and me, forever and more.

Totally fictitious.
I want my fairy-tales to come true so bad, its depressing.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009


why do I whine so much lately?

nose is blocked, sometimes running like fire hydrant bocor.
headache won't seem to go away after those dreadful tears.
workload is too much for me to cope with, really, it is.
friends are too far off that I can't smother them with my whines.

SEEEE. I'm whining again.
Babilah. Babi. Babi. Babi.

Monday, October 5, 2009

Again, again!

"What is LOVE anyway?"
"It's nothing but a fantasy"

It goes along the lines of that.






Saturday, October 3, 2009


dearest B.

I miss you dearly.
Though I get to see you, I'm still missing you.

You've put a spell on me. :)

I miss the times that I could hang out with you and your friends,
and play around with your cats.

I miss the times that I have you all to myself.

Imy, Ird.

Nak cubit perut boleh?

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Tears and Joy

My place

Peah's Place

Bird's Place

The long-awaited Apple Danish Picture

The Whole Extended Family

These people, have done wondrous things.
They made me smile, laugh and cry (laughing).
They are my tears and joy,
My love and my life,
My friends. :)