occuring to me that it is not.
i am living a shadow of someone else's life.
someone very close to me, someone i used to trust.
i woke up today with the sound of someone rudely setting up my
i slept at 4 last night to drown all my fears away,
but today, it came to me like a hurricane.
everything i feared for, came true.
i will act happy when really, i am everything but.
when i keep it to myself, i get hurt,
when i let it go, i get hurt.
no matter what i do, it's a lose-lose situation.
i am merely a person with no feelings and objections.
i got pissed, and hit her. ONCE. on her hand.
and she ratted me out.
she bribed me for things she found out when she ransacked through
things she shouldn't even know.
it was after all, my notebook, with my password, my privacy,
my sacred hideout that i confide in.
all is at lost now.
i have surrendered my soul to my sister,
the day i hit her.