Monday, August 18, 2008

bonding

Kembali ke realiti. T_T

I just got back from my Johor-Singapore-Johor trip. Tiring, but sure as hell fun.
I bought a few hot-diggity-cool (omg, i am so lame) tshirts, and loads of candy. :D


Went to my first-cousin's wedding, and my aunt asked me this very stupid question.
"when is your turn?"
Adoi. Aku 20 pun belum. Sijil pun takde. Nak kawen dah? -_____-"
When I was at the wedding, it made me think of my own wedding.
I want it to be in front of my house. With 5 canopies. Baru meriah kan, saudara sume datang. :D
But the one thing I can't imagine is, me, sitting on the pelamin. Adoi.
Gila malu. Hahaha. Mane tau jalan-jalan dengan heels, jatuh tersembam. Wakakakaka


But still,
it made me forget I have college stuff, problems of my own, and the fact I still had some stuff that hasn't been sought over with Yen.

I know it's been two weeks since I last saw him, but the first week was hard. I missed him so much.
Come the second week, I was okay. I realized that I wasn't missing him. At all. Imagine. For some people who knows me, that would be the IMPOSSIBLE.

But it's the truth.
He made me feel like I don't have to miss him.
Like I am not in a relationship.
Like no one cares for me anymore.

But when I get home, everything changed. I cry, cry and cry.
Realising the fact that he treats me like shit nowadays.
He doesn't even say I Love You back.

Is this for real?
Is he getting tired of me.

Shit.


fcuk.
ok, aku makin pathetic.
serabutkan kepala dgn masalah cinta, pikirkan pasak kawin.
sangat bodoh.
Hannah, bangun la.
please.