Confession

I forgot the feeling of watching movies alone, and being able to keep the envy feelings to myself. Whenever I see couples, (which obviously, is on a daily basis) I get all jealous and turn away. Wai? Oh well, we're going to be 9 months this month. Time flies, kan? We were thinking of getting away, next February, but yesterday, when he told me that he got a job with a 5 month contract, I didn't even give myself an opportunity to feel surprised. I somehow knew it was coming. I am just too lazy to think about it.

Sigh, sigh, sigh. He's finishing his contract in April. I'm finishing my 4th semester in May. Probably he'll have time for me, then? I texted Conscience, and told her that B is always with work, and rarely spends a whole day with me, and said, "I won't ever be able to spend a day with him, no interruptions, will i?" and She replied, "Of course you will, kahwin nanti.hihi"

I shall wait for my wedding day then. I shall wait for the day, where everything will change. Or will it?

Maybe it will just change to having a busy Boyfriend, to having a busy Husband.

Sigh. I guess this is why I don't see us married? :'(