like glue.

would it be awesome if we had like a gadget that can erase painful memories? I'd have it in my bag all the time. anytime you feel hurt by your memories, bzzt. it goes away. every time you saw someone that takes you back to old, hurtful memories, bzzt, it goes away.

okay, I'm bullshitting.

how come it looks so easy when other people do it?
why is this trail of thoughts following me everywhere?
the best distraction for me, used to be my job in promod.
but until recently, even the job can't distract me from feeling gloomy.

now, i found a better solutions to my problems and thoughts.
having day outs with kishi, may, mel and the others.
they seriously make me forget all my fears, my thoughts and my pain.

sometimes you can only wonder how people get by after you've been shot.
now, i've found my answer. my girls who never fails to make me laugh.

i love them like no other.
even more than my boyfriend. well, duh. :)

i am just glad I've found my tears and laughter friends.


Alhamdulillah.

right back at you.

back again.

why is it all the positive thinking is biting me in the ass?

being hopeful, being helpful, being too strong, too friendly. being too positive in general?

i don't want this. i'm not liking this.



at the end of the day, all i can really do is just let out a helpless sigh, and toughen myself up for the future? seems like a daily routine. well, i'll better get myself ready for the emotional roller coaster.


:)

Trance

Have you ever stared into blank space, and when you snap out of your trance, you find out something new about you?

Well, I found out that I am actually stronger, emotionally.

I have a thousand thoughts racing in my mind, yet I can’t even pen it down. Something is wrong, and I don’t like the looks of it.
:(

Eff Off

you can slowly EFF yourself to DIE. you mother EFF.

As you can see, I am still pissed.

I never did any of this to you. Have I?
If I did, I never rubbed it in your face, you ruthless B.



My anger is back people.
Fasten your seat belts.

WAI?

Berulang kali ku mencuba, memujuk hati, lupakan semua kenangan..

Why on earth would I be thinking about this? Why would I be sad? Why am I crying now?

ShitShitShit. This is not happening. I effing hate the drama.

Even when things ended, you still lie to me?

Perhaps?

Every time you hold my hand, you make my heart beat faster.

Every time you pull me into your arms, you make my heart leap.

Every time you kiss me on my forehead, I feel the time stopped running.

Every time you surprise me with a hug, you make me smile, and feel as if, we're the only ones in the universe.

Every time you kiss my hands, I wish that you can love me forever.

Every time i stare in your eyes, I find myself at peace.

Every time that we sit quietly and stare at each other, I know we're going to last.

Don't let me go, because I won't ever let you.

I do not dare to say I'm head over heels for you, but my I just want you to know, I'm here for you, always and hopefully, forever.

Perhaps, I AM in love?
It took me this long, to realize that he means so much to me.
Maybe I wasn't ready before. :(

Penat

It's been a while, I'm so tied up, I can't even breathe.

Degree applications, Diploma verifications, Loan applications, Sales at promod, Cash flow like water. :(



I am tired. I am tired. Tired, I am.


Take me to a holiday PLEAAAASEEEE~

Advertising (Honours)

Though I've said some regretful things about my previous institution and what happened, I'm glad they still offered me Advertising (Honours) for my bachelor. Alhamdulillah, this girl is going to further her studies akhirnya.

Aussie plans might be postponed, due to late application forms and I got this offer first.

UiTM dihatiku, afterall?


Geez, no.

results, burgers and late night crushes.

I am SO totally in LOVE!

Gabe Bondoc of CA, marry me, please! I love youuuuuuuuuuuu! *Girlish fan scream* Check him out in YouTube people, he's awesome and he's hot!

So there, my late night, new found crush. Rawrrrrr~


My results is kicking yo! Well, I bet most of the students from my batch has better results, but who cares, I'm not suspended, and I have good results. This couldn't be better. :D:D:D:D

The boyfriend was being super nice, even though I wasn't so nice to him. He knew I didn't eat a proper meal today, and dropped me off my fave burger, just so he knows that I've eaten something today. Thanks sayang. That's the second time you came by my house just do give me something to eat, I love you for it. :D:D

Speechless.

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not because of the results, I just feel like cursing today. FUCK!